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He
watched the bird rise from the valley floor, hold motionless
on a thermal, its wings silhouetted against the white
sky and he thought what a magical thing this was, what
a miraculous thing for God to have created this creature
to be so majestic, so fine for its task. Men were nowhere
near so well suited to what they had to do.
For
a long time the bird seemed to just hang there, only
the merest ruffle of the very tips of its huge wings
the only movement and yet he knew that it turned it's
head slightly, tilted it's all seeing eye downwards
to survey the valley floor below for movement.
Dramatically
it stooped, plummeted towards the ground with heart
stopping speed.
He
was a child again, a vague sense of urgency driving
him forward, though he could put neither time nor place
to the memory. In his mind he could feel the rough grass
against his bare legs, his heart pounding as he ran
towards the place where he felt sure that the bird would
be lying, terribly injured if not dead.
The
bird he had been watching rose in to his line
of sight and claimed his attention again, banishing
the half remembered thoughts. He watched it hang like
a Chinese kite against the sky.
The
idea occurred to him that perhaps he might put off his
return to London for another week. There was nothing
that urgent, nothing that might not just as easily be
done here, and after the States, he really did need
the rest.
Thinking
of America, even being here and looking out across the
steeply wooded valley, he thought of Jenny and the way
they had parted. He supposed that if he made a really
big effort they might forgive one another and get back
together again but even as he thought it, it didn't
seem worth it. There were some people, some relationships
that really were more trouble than they were worth and
though the physical thing with Jenny was great, they
were too different, emotionally, intellectually , every
way, to make a go of it.
It
was no fun thinking of Jenny and the past.He needed
something in the here and now to soothe his soul.
He
gazed out across the valley before deciding to make
his way back up to the road.
The
bird stooped again.
'Why
doesn't it die?'
'Don't
worry.God will catch it.''
He
half turned to make his way back up to the Range Rover.
There
was a sudden sensation of something soft and slippery
beneath his boot, a mossy clump still wet from last
night's rain.
Suddenly,
in the terrifying moments of free-fall before his body
fell back against the rocks, he was the bird, stooping
to some prey on the valley bottom.
Then
his shoulders hit rock, he fell forwards on to his knees,
turned over in space, fell back the pain smashing in
to him with each contact.
'Don't
worry. God will catch you.'
There
was a sudden massive jolt to his brain, then blackness
and nothing more.
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